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MA STORY : CONFESSION

assalamuallaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakaatuuh

Today, March 26, 2019, I'm going to confess about my feeling to someone who has been, even always filling this heart for a long time.

I don't care anymore. I've been hiding it for a long time. I'm very tired of that. I don't even care about my self-respect anymore so that everything can be revealed. I don't care about his feelings, at least he knows mine.

I like him-

His eyes, how he smiled, and how cute he was.

I don't know, if he truly liked me before, so I have feelings to him. I can't be sure, we were both on 5th grade of Elementary School then, who just 11th  years old. we're both just a child.

Through his friend, he said he likes me and wanna be my boyfriend. I surprised then, never imagined about having a boyfriend in such as a young age. Instead of rejected him and hurt his feeling, I just said that he had to increase his body height 5 cm higher than before in 2 weeks so he could date me (I was higher than average of my friends then). I knew it would be impossible! I said like that not because I didn't like him, but we were too young...

And you know, I've been touched, my heart was shaken and fluttered, seeing his effort to increase his height-
But, in two weeks I never been asked again about this 'thing'. I guessed he thinks I'll rejected him because he couldn't grant my wish. He don't know, I've been waiting for him to ask that one last time and maybe say yes, even until now😄 

.........

If you, the only one person I mean, read this massage, yes, it was for you. The one that I always thinking about. The one that ever always there with me, since we were child in kindergarten. The one man that hard to forgotten and always back to my heart.

I don't expect anything to you say something about my silly confession to you. I will be so glad enough if you already know my feeling.

I couldn't see the future. If you find someone, together for the rest of your life, I'll be so glad as she will lives together with someone who very nice like you, someone who always fights to reach his purposes, and someone who always guides her to be a good person as he does-

IFR
 
wassalamuallaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakaatuuh

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